It's Never Too Late...

It's easy to forget Cammy passed away sometimes. Puck's passing was like a real kick to the stomach, I can't imagine Robin without him. They were a pair and a team. So I feel like it hurt...hurt bad and it was real and I dealt, but Cammy was just a trip. Cammy was always isolated in one way or another while she lived here. Always happy and purring...Anyways I went in the closet to get a bag for a trip to Florida with John to see some friends and...it just kind of hit me...I remember her all perched up on the closet rafters...never fully understood how she got up there. I'm sorry for the occasional diary post, but I don't feel like building a new site and sometimes I want to put an outcry out. Cammy was an awesome cat, i wished I could've given her more love and support.

--Casey

Here's my R.City live design, I'm pretty pleased with it, it's exactly the kind of minimlism combined with grunge I always wished I could do at my old job, but we were never really could get cleared. The formatting of my web design still feels a little off, but I'm happy with the final product regardless. Big props to Shaun Persaud, Mowie's programmer extroidinare, it's sooooo awesome to just design sites and not have the burden of programming them. It warms my dark heart.

I can't explain it, this makes me laugh forever. It's the animation Dave and Rob wrote, but they forgot they wrote it and sent it to a MassArt student.

If my Dad had the wit to match his mind, he'd have been George Carlin. The guy lived a good life, but when people talk progressive, smart, genre changing, and other trite bullshit. They're talking about George Carlin. :)

Going to HeroesCon this year, I'm not really gonna be to official or anything. I plan to enjoy the con and maybe network a little more than kill myself trying to push to make a "con" presence. I will be selling my few remaining sketchbooks that I printed for DragonCon. My work will also be featured in the new Studio Revolver sketchbook which will be debuting AT HeroesCon. We have work in it from the regulars Georges Jeanty, Dexter Vines, John Christopher, Tom Feister, Tariq Hassan, and myself. We also have work from new studio members Kevin Stokes and Jason Pearson. (Yeah, that Jason Pearson, cool huh?) We're getting it printed through Indigo Ink being handled by Rico Renzi. I've heard Rico is just the nicest guy and I feel like a schmuck cause I've contacted Rico twice for work only to have nothing come of it. So I'm excited to actually get to have his help. (He's part of the dynamic Duo Kickstand Kids with Chris Brunner) Anyways, looking forward to it, if your going to be there say hi, I can't wait to meet some of the folks attending.

Another week in Boston, Mom is doing well.....my Mom always has the best attitude. She told me the story of how her and Dad met...I asked. It was something my cousin Kyle suggested and it was worth it. He lost his father awhile back and he mentioned that he wishes he had more time to hear some more stories one more time. My family...to me...always had an odd dynamic, I love them but I'm so alienated from them. I want to work on that but.....to be so emotionally distressed these days...I don't know... I am frustrated ALL THE TIME.....anger seeps out in inappropiate ways and the only way to deal seems to withdraw...which is unhealthy. So I'm trying to reach out more, see people, see things. I'm babbling now....ugh....

I just want to thank the friends who are sticking so close to me these days. When my dad died....I ....I always felt like my dad was this pillar in my family, he kept things grounded and I felt I should be the pillar in his place. I tried and I think it was bad for me. I think I've paid the price for years of adding a new level to my emotional suppresion. I don't want to do that with Mom....and it's extra hard to be doing it at a time in my life when I don't have a significant other but folks are super supportive and I want to thank the folks who have helped me out. I'm hanging in here and big thanks to you all.

--New Carpet for my top floor.
--New Hardwood for downstairs.
--New Flat Stove.
--New Dishwasher
--Steam waser and cool new w/ cool stackable dryer
--a Cintiq

That's it for now.

Oh...Mac needs to replace the MacMini with the MacNano....so I can buy one.